Cada esfuerzo que intento hacer, cuando intento ayudar a alguien, a miles de personas que ni siquiera están ahora en mi vida ha habido por ellas una grieta que por desgracia permanece en mi corazón , es imborrable y no se transforma en rencor. Cada una de ellas tiene una historia o acontecimiento , la mayoría injusto aunque otros no. Antes se transformaba en un "te pondrás mejor" y pasaba a la siguiente aventura, ahora se transforma en una tristeza imborrable y llena de un auto- análisis recrimina-torio.
Muchos de mis actos son producidos por estos momentos en los que yo he sentido que he dado lo mejor de mí o al menos lo he intentado para que la otra persona pudiera hacerla sentir bien y lo único que he conseguido es que ni les apetezca mi presencia, y eso hace que me pregunte varias cosas..¿Realmente soy tan detestable y inestable? Es decir, es una acumulación de varios años, 5 o así y realmente creo que el problema lo tengo yo y no los demás, si lo doy todo esperando quizá lo mismo a cambio y lo que recibo es una pequeña parte de lo que no quieren darme o simplemente meterse un otro lío de mierda teniéndome a mí. A tenido consecuencias conmigo, sé que no puedo confiar en la gente, y que me he construido un muro de cemento difícil de destruir y que no aleja a las demás personas de mí sino a a la inversa, me lo he construido para quedarme yo dentro. Lo peor de todo es que cuando eso ocurre y alguien "pica la puerta", consigo ponerles "a prueba" para ver si se irán o no. Y estoy cansada de esta situación, no quiero que eso suceda joder, no se lo merecen. Aunque también es verdad que con quien me ha jodido bastante siempre pienso que no volverá a hacerlo, perdono lo imperdonable y otra oportunidad..
Suerte que te tengo conmigo y haces que ese corazón se llene de calor y siga bombeando porque sino estaría en la basura o en un colador.
Me siento exhausta..sé que esas cicatrices se van abriendo más y más y que hay una que lo atraviesa en canal y que cuando se abra del todo, empezará a derramar sangre y no parará.
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love
What is love? It is one of the most difficult questions for the mankind. Centuries have passed by, relationships have bloomed and so has love. But no one can give the proper definition of love. To some Love is friendship set on fire for others Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it. No matter how you define it or feel it, love is the eternal truth in the history of mankind.
Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true. Love can occur between two or more individuals. It bonds them and connects them in a unified link of trust, intimacy and interdependence. It enhances the relationship and comforts the soul. Love should be experienced and not just felt. The depth of love can not be measured. Look at the relationship between a mother and a child. The mother loves the child unconditionally and it can not be measured at all. A different dimension can be attained between any relationships with the magic of love. Love can be created. You just need to focus on the goodness of the other person. If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily. And remember we all have some positive aspect in us, no matter how bad our deeds maybe. It says that it never exist, because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships. There has been hatred between brothers, parents and children, sibling rivalry and spouses have failed each other. Friends have betrayed each other; the son has killed his parents for the throne, the count is endless. Even the modern generation is also facing with such dilemmas everyday. But love has always ruled, in music, poetry, paintings, sculptor and literature. Psychology has also done lot of dissection to the essence of love, just like what biology, anthropology and neuroscience has also done to it.
Psychology portrays love as a cognitive phenomenon with a social cause. Intimacy, Commitment, and Passion. Also, in an ancient proverb love is defined as a high form of tolerance. And this view has been accepted and advocated by both philosophers and scholars. Love also includes compatibility. But it is more of journey to the unknown when the concept of compatibility comes into picture. Maybe the person whom we see in front of us, may be least compatible than the person who is miles away. We might talk to each other and portray that we love each other, but practically we do not end up into any relationship. Also in compatibility, the key is to think about the long term successful relationship, not a short journey. We need to understand each other and must always remember that no body is perfect.
Be together, share your joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need. And surely love will blossom to strengthen your relationship with your matter of affection.
Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare.
Nada mejor que esperar el mañana con fe y con la esperanza de que algo bueno va a suceder.
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